.rendezvous.

{happiness}

2012-02-16T18:51:00.003+07:00

what can i say?
i don't kiss and tell.
and you can't feel what i felt either.
word will be meaningless.
here, i'll give you my random rants.

nama : rara utami
umur : soon, i'll be 23 y.o *yikes!
hobi : tidur dan hura-hura
ambisi : kaya dari pesugihan, watch any festival/concert i want.
keahlian khusus : how to get wasted politely
kelemahan : tulang-tulang bagus, nggak tahan api

shut up. i know what i want and how to get there. might change directions without warning.

2013! excited already!

terlalu buas

2012-02-07T12:40:00.003+07:00

kenapa kalo malemnya minum pasti besok paginya nggak enak badan?

bukan hangover. that, i know very well and cope with it pretty often.

ini tuh rasanya kayak badan kering dari dalem, semacam dehidrasi yang nggak bisa diusir pake air putih. dan seharian rasanya rokok pun tak sedap. bahkan ditemani kopi sekalipun. well well well do i drink that much? tapi ini cuma kalo minum apapun selain bir/vodka. sama yang dua tadi mah udah kebal. fufufu.

last night, i had my very first encounter with Numark NS6. "SERATO". Serato, is a digital DJ controller. It allow you to mix external sources with tracks on your computer. So. No, Serato is not the kind of DJ set you might seen at the club, since it has no vinyl/CD source. No more burning CD's! Oh lovely lovely lovely. My friend kindly teach me how to rape the controller, as well as raping our favourite song, and we did have a good laugh along with nice company by Bacardi+Coke. :-)

I've used DJ Controller before. But still, this is FFFFFFUUUUUNNNNN. 3 hours is definetely not enough to master him! i want MORE. so yeah, i refer to Serato when i previously said "I've missed him already."

OK. if you'll ever see me crazy enough to spinning on the deck, i'll be good. Or very drunk.

P.S : Writing has never been this hard before. Still suffering from whatsoever-this-unpleasant-feeling-called. Pardon the grammar, rants, i just wanna BOAST. like a BOSS.

2012-02-01T02:04:00.002+07:00

"Be, the greatest man in history
The greatest man that you can be
Just be."

"Walk, walk out on the beach with me
Walk out in the sea with me
Just be."

dry.
yes, you're in my inappropriate thoughts.

rants

2012-01-11T16:03:00.003+07:00

Fine. i'll say it quick : HAPPY FUCKING NEW YEAR EVERYONE.

anyone here loves talking to yourself while driving?
anyone?
please, don't make me feel like a lonesome lunatic here.

well, i do, for quite such an obvious reason ; it's fun. and it does help me concentrate. and it make me feels less lonely. i brainstorm with myself. and no one is arguing. i sing, with nothing to be shamed for. solitude is a t o t a l b l i s s.

screw on 2012 resolutions! i know i'll make one eventually, and accomplished 70% of it. i used to write 'a boyfriend, perhaps' on EVERY-FUCKING-NEW-YEAR resolutions. until i finally gave in. boyfriend or no boyfriend, i'll live. i'll be happy. new job, family, friends, more money, more bands, more flirtations, fuck you boyfriend. you and the happiness you promise me, which i could get from a hot fling. aren't being single is lovely? FUCK YOU NEW YEAR!! sorry, can't help the 'fuck' thing. it's the immensity of the fuck i do not give.

have you met my latest crush? his name is Sebastian Akchote, his stage name is SebastiAn (yes, with capital A, this is not a typo case) a pretty well known artist from le french Ed Banger Records, and he's HOT. STEAMING HOT. i would totally loved to fuck him. e v e r y d a y~
OK. Moving on with this hasty mind. Either i happened to have too much stuff on my brain right now, or i simply can't focus on 1 thing. How's life been treating you lately? In my case, they treat me with lots of choices, in a nice way. LOTS of concert choices. Hello, am i the only one panicking here? Laneway (with 10-ish artist in it), Royksopp, Death Cab For Cutie, and god knows what next. You may laugh at me to be frantic over concerts, but hey there are girls who addicted over shoes! I think concerts are more reasonable.

However there are choices to be made, things prior than others, i'll make mine soon. Have a joyous and prosperous years ahead! Doom / no doom, live this year like theres no years ahead! Kissous!!

middel finger attack

2011-12-26T16:32:00.002+07:00

i used to went through this phase by sadness.
i used to blame my self when my hope crushed.
i used to get my hope high, high, high, then fall.

now i had a skeptical mind.
expectations are just an illusion your heart created.
now anger keep me company.
now i cursed the day they were destined to met me.

to quote from Autolux :
"my ticket exploded when you came from nowhere and left me in static. now i just hang around"

hey, i'll be the first and last to laugh. and still hang around. you, enjoy the show. MY SHOW.

playing household pt.36589

2011-12-19T20:15:00.003+07:00

Ibu ke Surabaya (lagi). Saya jadi koki (lagi). Seneng sih, rasa masakan terjamin kualitasnya (kualitas versi saya = tingkat keasinan dan kadar MSG tinggi) hahaha. Jadi, tadi pas masih di kantor Bapak telpon : "Kamu cepet pulang ya, aku sudah belanja, nanti kamu yang masak makan malam." OKE. Inikah jalur kehidupanku kalau nanti berumah tangga? Saya sibuk di kantor, suami belanja, saya tinggal masak.

Cukucukucukucuk, saya pulang.

Sampai rumah ternyata Bapak dan Adik sudah kelaparan ; mereka udah makan duluan. Bangsat. Tau gitu nggak usah buru-buru.

Ngecek kulkas. Ternyata, yang dimaksud ayah saya belanja adalaahh : beli corned dan telur. "YAKALI DEH PAK, INI KAN RUMAH ; BUKAN MADTARI." *dalam hati* . Puter kulkas. Nemu jagung. That's it! That's all ingredients that avalaible! Bikin apa yaa.

Maka saya sulap bahan-bahan itu jadi "Surga Dunia"

Pertama, jagungnya dipipil, terus digoreng pake mentega + bawang putih. Masukkin korned. Kocok telur di wadah terpisah, bumbui sesuai selera. Setelah jagung+korned mateng, masukkin ke kocokan telur. Dadar deh. Ini jadinya :

bentuknya agak nggak karuan sih, karena saya orangnya nggak sabaran jadi bawaannya pengen buru-buru ganti posisi. *eh* rasanya ? exceed expectations. lumayan kok buat dicoba kalo emang mau coba-coba. *apa sih*

dadah semuanya, saya pacaran sama keluarga Adobe lagi yaa. sampai jumpa di postingan selanjutnyaa.

guitar vs bass

2011-12-04T14:06:00.002+07:00

Lately.. i have to admit i've been easily seduced by a the sound of a distorted guitar. Beforehand, i'm more a punched-by-a-dope-bassline type of girl. I don't know if any of you experienced it before, but more or less ; it felt like somebody invisible pinch your back bone, and you have a heartburn. It gets you high without any substance. *cat's grin*

I repeat Earthless over and over. And constantly having a heartburn. That's when i realized i was seduced by guitar distortion. That happens 3 days ago. Now i'm wondering why...

Will my love to any dopey bassline dissapear? Or is this just a temporary crush? Will this change affect my preferable bass player to guitar player? Will this improve my love life? la la la~

Dominic Simper of Tame Impala

coo-coo

2011-11-23T16:38:00.002+07:00

"this is a cruel world i had to conquered" - Rara Utami, 2011

trippy

2011-11-23T15:00:00.002+07:00

The date is November 23rd. Year 2011.
this is a few hasty draft that haven't been developed into a more vivid form yet. but here it goes ...

I do enjoy rain and those white noise they're creating. It prevents me from thinking the avoidable. The solitude and volatility! Those cold breeze! It was allright until i saw the lightning. I do affraid of thunder. It has something to do with commotion, sudden aghast, which none of the above i fancy with. And something with my past, if i must say. You have no idea how was it feels like ; having your car crashed by a fallen tree because of lightning.
I don't believe i have the ability to compose a good song, so i never made one. But what a torment it is! To hear a good song over and over again, and realize that they were made from a jolly simple chords. Then said a voice from afar ; "You could do better than this." But you never did. Now you attempt to made one, but you were affraid. Something to do with my past again? Failure does not have a good revenue on me.
Talking about failure, i have tendencies to choose sadness over happiness. It always joy versus guilt, and the person who makes you unhappy may not even realize what they've done to you. What you've done to keep them happy. How you struggle with your guilt. And sadly, i've done that time over time. Why did i always done scrubby stuffs just to keep other person, the kind of person that doesn't care whether you're alive of not, and regreting it afterwards? I don't want to see this kind of world anymore.
Freedoms are dangerous. Well, at least to me. I need to be controlled ; not in an excessive way, just in enough amount to keep me in path. I like to keeping busy everyday, wherever it may lead me to. Exhaustion, as always. But fatigue are better way to remind you that you're alive other than void.
Am i that persistent? Or is that you being so ignorant? Is it me being stubborn? Or it's just you that so ignoramus? I believe everyone does have a good seed inside. Why aren't you treat yours well?
Am i turning into an agnostic? Because i don't believe that there is such 'punishment' if we don't behave well. You get what you give, even pure oxygen cost a dough. And love does cost a numerous amount of phone credit.

wahnsinnig

2011-11-09T18:20:00.004+07:00

dear lunatic friend of mine ;

sincerely, lunatic 2.

*i know this post wasn't even worth a second read anyway. was written in the state of half guilt - half mad/confused*

numb

2011-11-01T20:44:00.004+07:00

Indonesian people sure know how to scuttle the existence of corteous civilization. Here, I won't converse about something delirious, either utter delinquent matters. I'll simply told you about my chronicle, on the weald of steels, called "highway".

We, the noble Indonesian people, are highly proficient on establish a peevishness while you're driving. We (by the term 'we', i do mean the pedestrian) could traverse the street anywhere we like, and we don't care whether the vehicle we're about to block are running on 70 mph and we're standing less than 100m from them, which with prosperous luck, could lead us straight to heaven ; or in some unfortunate case : permanent defect. Sometimes, we even overpass them on unbelieveably retarded rate of speed, without even a glance to the road.

Wait, that's not our only power.

Give us a conveyance, and soon enough you'll realize ; providing Israel with nuclear weapon is not the world's biggest problem. Our most treasured gear on the street called motorcycle. There's few reason why we pick this destructive entity as our common favourites vehicle. Firstly ; it's cheap. With only 50$ / months installment, it could be yours. Secondly ; it doesn't exert much gasoline - which fit perfectly with our monthly stipend! And last but not least ; it's easy to be used. Now that most of it comes in automatic gears, it's even handier to use than bicycle.

With merely enough space between 2 cars, we could easily slink in - without even any expostulation. Did we inadvertently hatch your rear mirror? Oooops. But wait, we're not familiar with this foreign word called 'stop', since we have the ability to slither away. Within 15 seconds, you'll lose our trails.

You haven't know our prime aptitude yet. We're not affraid of barriers! Yeah right, concrete barriers! We know, we know, those barriers supposedly were made to keep us on the right lane. But we're impatient! "Oh look, the other side of the roads are clear, why can't we go there?" And we do this often ; we're driving against the tide! Yes, on 2 way lane, oftentimes we're crossing the opposites direction, even without lamp and helmet. If we get hit, of course we'll blame the biggest vehicle among us.

Now that you're ken with the sovereignity you could get along by driving one motorcycle, imagine what we could do in troop? We could only hope you drive indulgently. Alas, we've became wonted with those tonguelashing you did.

On the other side, richer people that could afford a four wheels vehicle are not much better than the rest of us. Their only disadvantages are their weapon is bigger ; so it takes more space and skills to do such maneuver. Oh, you haven't met their worst leader yet ; the public transportation's drivers. They only look on to the left side of the street, searching for an occupant to be carried. So, if you ever been so unlucky to be driving behind them, i hereby suggest you not to take their left side.

But, being a driver of a rusty cabriolet myself, cars, however horrible the drivers are, much more manageable than motorcycle. Yes we often drive while text messaging, along with other things we know we shouldn't do, such driving under influences, over the limit speed, using headphones etc., *once i even suspect a man driving while reading a book!* But, without any intention to plead, we're more vigilant than our decorous friends motorcycle driver. See, it'll cost us more to repair than to be cautious.

Pardon my rants, i write this in the state of numbness, which was unusual - since i only do writing on either ecstatic / desolate circumstancess. But what i wrote was true, it is my everyday impression on the road for almost 4 years now, and each year it's getting worse. That's why driving on peak hours is scathing, but returning over midnight are not safe either. Luckily not much foreigner drive in Indonesia (i clearly do not count Bali as Indonesia for obvious reasons). Otherwise, i could only envisage how they would sue our government for being lack of such concern. Or maybe they should do, so the world aware about how neglectful our ministry are. They witness none of these things, since they were escorted everywhere they go.

Last but not least :

Please do not encourage your brother / sister / friend / family to buy a motorcycle. (personal prefferences). Thank you.

oh well

2011-10-31T12:23:00.002+07:00

i've never been an assertive kind of person on the first place.
yes looks can be deceiving.
although i have a dirty mouth to speak the unspokeable swear, i couldn't really say what i've been meaning to.

i know i write this on my PMS week. btw you could skip this post if you wanted to, nothing important here. hmm, watched !!! and Tame Impala last weekend. been listening to !!! for quite a long time. yet they played none of my favourite songs. kinda dissapointed.

On the other hand, i've never listen to any of Tame Impala's song, except Lucidity, which i found on my office PC, because my previous co-worker put it there. Well well well. A lot of my friends love Tame Impala. Usually they described it as 'pshycedelic-rock-that-would-perfectly-suits-you-when-you're-stoned-just-like-their-cover-album'. Not an interesting description. So, with free ticket on my hands, i went to Beatfest 2011 with only knowing 1 song of them.

After !!! turned me down, i almost thinking to go home. Nothing to lose after all. But then i've got caught in situation where supossedly i have to drive my co-workers home, all the way to Bandung because they're *yeah* too drunk. I know, i know. Hold your comment. Another unnecessary inisiative, yeah. BUT THEN, Tame Impala caught my ear. Remember, i never listen to any of their songs except Lucidity as i told you before. But they're good. They're immensely-*pardon my languange*-fucking-good. All those rhytm changing, all those perfectly-put-effects, their stage attitude, was perfect to my mind.

On one of their song, which i can't recall what song it is, i automatically take my pick, then air-bass-ing their bassline. Fall in love with the bassist automatically *smirk*. Oh yes those Australian lads stole my ear on the first place. After the show all my co-workers dissapeared. I was left there alone to foster my boss. heaaaahh. None of them replied to my messages. Turned out they're on the backstage, queueing for Tame Impala's autograph.

So i went to the backstage, too. I got my ticket and pick to be sign be their bassist, yes their bassist only, that after i googled later named Nick Allbrook. So he sign both my ticket and pick, we chatted a long, HE ASKED WHAT BAND I'VE BEEN LISTEN TO RECENTLY, and stammeredly i answered Serena Maneesh and Sleep Party People, THEN HE PUNCHED MY SHOULDER because he didn't know them. (i take that as a compliment) We talked about few Danish bands, both of us familiar with Oh No Ono. My friend said he's a relative of Twin Shadow's vocalist. Yes, he confirmed it. Sure i take picture with him. Shitty pic, won't post it here. Fuck i forget to give him my card. *pardon my languange one more time*. I'm going home with a wide grin on my face.

Going back to Bandung, had cold shower after got my thigh burnt by the unpleasant sunlight. Cook comfort meals, had a nap, read The Virgin Suicides, sleep for the next 8 hours. Fine weekend.

2011-09-27T00:15:00.013+07:00

Day 3, September 23rd 2011 : Tadya's Home - IKEA - Bugis Street - Haji Lane - Orchard Rd. - Singapore GP - Home Club

SO, this is the day i've been waiting for, the first reason why i came to Singapore : Grand Prix!! (actually it's GTOPRI) waking up feeling absolutely happy ; the wheather is good, it's sunny, i'm having no hangover, i eat decent breakfast Tadya prepared, i've got no reason to be unhappy as long as i didn't look over my wallet.

jadi kita menuju IKEA, yang diwajibkan oleh sekian banyak orang di kantor dan di mana-mana, dan ternyata lumayan deket dari tempat Tadya. WOW IT'S BIG. Dan dari luar udah kecium bau wangi makanan, yang saya tebak kayaknya the so famous Swedish Meatball itu deh. Keliling keliling di IKEA, droolling over some fragrant candle that only cost S$5 for 36 pieces, sama electric whiskers yang udah lama saya cari-cari di Indonesia, frame S$2.8, boneka S$0.9, dan banyak lagi yang lainnya. Ujung-ujungnya nggak beli apa-apa karena yah, dompet kembang kempis bahkan cuma buat naik taksi doang. Tapi dapet beberapa inspirasi buat *ehm* display toko kok. fufufufu.

Beres dari situ, saya kekeuh pengen nyari wig warna turquoise buat dipake malemnya nonton GTOPRI, biar mencrang gitu (?) hahaha. So we're heading to Bugis Street. Bugis Street ini mengingatkan saya sama Kota Kembang di Bandung. Lorong yang isinya ada segala macem, tapi tetep yaa : bersih. Dan nggak ada copet. Dan yang pasti lebih mahal. Tapi ini cocok kok kalo kamu mau cari oleh-oleh dalam harga grosir, buat temen / saudara yang pasti ngucapin kata2 standar : "jangan lupa oleh-oleh yaa" HUFT.

Sedihnya nggak nemu satu pun toko yang khusus jualan wig. Jadiiiii lanjut ke Haji Lane. Haji Lane ini tempat berkumpulnya banyak toko-toko kecil yang dari luar biasa aja, tapi barang di dalemnya bok : KILLER. Mulai dari Nixon, sampe New Balance bag that you can't find in Indonesia! Merk - merk indie dari NY juga bertebaran di sini, dan yes it's bit pricey. Tapi berhubung tujuan saya kesini emang buat survey, dompet berhasil melewati Haji Lane dengan utuh kok.

Di jalan sempet ngeliat 'Gedung Gotham', satu dari beberapa gedung di Singapore yang katanya dibangun khusus dengan alasan feng shui. Di bagian atas ada patung 4 manusia yang megang bola, katanya itu sebagai simbol buat ngejaga perekonomian Singapore biar nggak turun. Daaaaan, dalemnya kosong. Cuma taman doang. Aseliik.

Then, we're heading to : THE SO FAMOUS ORCHARD ROAD. sebenernya saya nggak tertarik - tertarik amat ke sini, tapi pengen juga ke H&M, jadi yaaaa..... ke sana deh. Saya udah di wanti-wanti sama Mia sih, kalo ke orchard harus makan es krim S$1 rasa kacang yang katanya enak banget. Dijualnya di motor gitu, dan tersebar banyak di sepanjang orchard. Tapii sebelum kesana saya baru aja makan siang murah meriah di : SUPREME PORK CHOP RICE. (dari namanya aja udah tau kan menunya apa aja.) Tapi nggak cuma pork kok yang disediain di sini, ada chicken jugaa. Dan untuk harga S$3.8, rasanya enaaaaaak. Dagingnya crispy tipis enak gitu. Dan walaupun saya nggak terlalu suka sambel singapore yang kental rasa ginger nya itu, makanan ini tetep enak tanpa sambel kok. Mungkin lain kali saya ke Singapore *amin* bawa sambel sendiri kali ya. LOL. Lanjut ke Orchard yaa.

Orchard is a fucking long road. Kaki saya udah mau putus rasanya diperkosa jalan kaki dari kemaren. Tapi toh akhirnya sampe juga di another so famous H&M. Buset mau masuk aja ngantri. Cuma 1 menit sih, dan nggak ada orang yang nyela antrian. *ah i love singapore* Nyampe dalem : penuhnya udah kayak mau jumrohhhh. Boro-boro browsing ; nafas aja susyeeeh. Lagi-lagi saya berhasil keluar dengan dompet utuh. Nambah malah, soalnya sempet ke money changer dulu. Dompet saya berhasil jebol di toko sebelah, soalnya nemu cincin keren banget. Bakal berguna kalo saya berantem sama supir angkot deh.

And finally : *drum roll please* I'm heading to Singapore GP!! AZZZZZZEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKK. begitu masuk, ID card kita di scan gitu ; buat ngecek kita valid apa nggak buat masuk dari gate itu. canggih yaaaa? hahaha kampungan. Sempet nyasar karena malas bertanya. Padahal kalo nanya pasti dijawab dengan ramahnya kok.

Singapore GP areanya gede banget lho, zone 4 yang saya kelilingin aja lebih gede dari ITB. (maaf ya patokannya Pasar Seni ITB 2010 :p)TAPI BEDANYA YANG INI SUPER TER-ORGANIZED. hahahaha. langsung nonton Massive Attack DJ Set. Disambut lagu pertama Teardrop, rasanya langsung meleleh nggak inget apa-apa lagi. Samar samar saya masih inget lagu Angel dibawain, dan banyak lagu lainnya dari semua album, diseling juga sama lagu lain aduh saya kalo excited nggak bisa inget urutan lagu banyak-banyak, maaf ya.

Beres Massive Attack DJ set sebenernya masih ada jeda waktu 1.5 jam sampe GTOPRI mulai, tapi daripada nyasar terus telat, (dan nggak ada kerjaan juga), saya langsung aja ke Padang Stage. Dan bener kan pake nyasar dulu. Di sinilah musibah dimulai. Ternyata, buat berdiri di depan panggung persis (fans area), kita harus punya wristband warna hijau yang berlaku selama 1 hari, dibagiin jam 3 sore tadi. jeng jeng. saya nggak punya. sedangkan area buat penonton tanpa wristband seperti saya, jaraknya sekitar 500m dari panggung. dan panggungnya itu segede ka'bah. manalah GTOPRI bakal keliatan.
Setelah 1 jam pasrah dan lula, akhirnya muncul ide cemerlang. Saya nyari bapak-bapak / ibu-ibu yang pake wristband ijo di luar fans area. Kenapa bapak-bapak / ibu-ibu? Soalnya they're least likely going to watch GTOPRI. apalagi setelah 1 jam orangnya makin banyak ya, ada yang bawa karton, ada yang bawa spanduk, ada yang bawa balon juga. Saya aja bawa spanduk 'PERSIB MAUNG BANDUNG' kok. Finally saya nemu a couple of old husband and wives, a foreigner, jadi 80% bisa ngomong bahasa inggris lah ya, masalahnya they looked so fond into each other, holding hands sambil ngeliat-liat, saya jadi nggak tega ngeganggu :-( . Sempet ngeliat bapak-bapak bule juga, tapi jalannya ngebut banget jadi udah keburu ilang sebelum dicegat. Akhirnya saya ketinggalan Seungri, terpaksa puas cuma bisa ngeliatin tampang gantengnya dari big screen doang.

Then miracle happens.

Security open the fans area gate for everyone. So i ran. I ran like an athlete. woosh wooosshhh and voila i'm in. Di sebelah saya (pas lari) ada 2 cewek singapore yang nangis sambil lari. *ooooooohhhhh*. Maka saya mendesak maju ke depan sebisa mungkin, close enough to see G-Dragon and T.O.P face. terus teriak-teriak. Pas beres : sumaph 4 tahun marahin anak orang di acara kaderisasi suara saya nggak pernah sehabis ini. Sukses diliatin orang kiri kanan depan sih (bahkan G-Dragon ngelirik saya!!), tapi bodo amat. Udah ah cerita GTOPRI nya segitu aja, takut kangen.
Beres GP, i'm heading to Home Club, where Chloe already fit me and Tadya on the guestlist, where we met bunch of embarassing Indonesian people cum dancing on Blur's song, then we go home on 2:00. Then i googling on how do i get to Changi using MRT since i only got few moneys left, then there i go to Changi using MRT to catch those early morning flight.

Thank you Singapore, you're a great escape. I'm going home absolutely refreshed and happy. Like Tahiti 80 said : Empty (pocket) and amused, happy and confused.

2011-09-25T13:10:00.010+07:00

DAY 2, September 22nd 2011 : Tadya's Home - Bugis Junction - Singapore Art Museum - Singapore National Museum - Zhang Sweeke (?) - Raffles Hotel - Clark Quay

Waking up with heavy head because of the hangover. Stoned for almost half and a hour. Pokoknya nggak mood ngapa-ngapain. But fuck it, i'm in Singapore for the very 1st time, masak iya gw tidur seharian di rumah? Maka demi memenuhi janji dengan temen saya di Singapore, berangkatlah kita ke Bugis Junction, naik MRT! yeah ini perdana saya naik MRT! pertamanya jelas bingung, tapi lama-lama (setelah 2 hari) akhirnya ngerti cara baca peta, ganti line, baca arah, dsb.

Ketemu Chloe buat ngambil tiket F1, fuck yeah i'm watching F1~ and Massive Attack DJ Set~ and GD&TOP & Seungri! then we're having Chloe's favourite hangover cure, Chocolate Cake!

enaaaaaak~ not exactly cure hangover though, but it's good! then me and chloe heading to SAM ; Singapore Art Museum, ngeliat karya Liu Kang, ah drawing nya bagus sekaliii. and it's all very quiet, organized, and modern. banyak layar sentuh buat ngeliat sejarah Liu Kang di Eropa, India, Bali, dan Singapore. Saya yang tadinya nggak tau siapa itu Liu Kang sampe jadi suka sama karyanya.

Terus lanjut ke Singapore National Museum. Ini museum tentang Singapore gitu, apa aja yang pernah ada di Singapore; mulai dari fashion, movie, photography, sampe makanan! Di sana becak dan gerobak makanan kaki lima udah masuk museum lho, di Indonesia masih ada di mana-mana hahaha. This building seriosly take my breath away. Serius. Gede banget. Bersih banget. Interaktif banget. Bahkan mereka punya rekaman band-band singapore taun 50-an. So cooool~

Di bagian Movie, settingnya udah semi theatre gitu. Dan ternyata film-film di Singapore tahun 50an kebanyakan pake bahasa Melayu, dengan alasan supaya lebih 'eksotis' dan menjual, padahal dijualnya ke negara-negara kayak Indonesia / Malaysia juga yang notabebene punya bahasa yang sama.

Pokoknya kalo ke Singapore harus ke Museum ini! Seru, nggak kayak ke museum di Indonesia yang sedihnya nggak terawat, dan mayoritas pengunjungnya pelajar yang itu pun kesana dalam rangka tugas sekolah.

Setelah jalan ke mana-mana, bahkan nyobain jalan di underpass-nya Singapore Management University yang keren abissss, udah kayak mall dan bukannya universitas! Pokoknya kaki saya dijamin pegel banget, udah lecet dari kemarin sih, dan hari ini makin pegel tapi seneng, kita makan di Zhang Sweeke (?) >> damn i can't remember the name of that place, yang kata Chloe adalah salah satu dari sedikit makanan Singapore yang bener-bener otentik. Semacam hainanesse rice gitu deh. It's good! (saya bakal bilang semua makanan enak kok, mulut dan perut saya terlahir diciptakan untuk insyaallah bisa survive di mana saja)

Selain itu juga nyobain Old ChangKee, Snack yang katanya juga otentik, asli Singapore. Kalo di Indonesia disebut gorengan kali ya, cuma yang di sini bersih dan dijamin nggak digoreng pake plastik hahaha. Yang jelas Curry Puff sama Fried Sotong-nya enaaaaak. See? I'll seriously said every food is gewd.

setelah foto-foto narsis di Raffles Hotel, dan berandai-andai how this place would feels like on 1940-ish, saya pulang ke tempatnya Tadya, naik MRT sendirian! udah berasa real singaporean with earphone plugged, standing on MRT, fast walking from the station to apartment. Satu hal yang menyenangkan di Singapore, di sini orang nggak peduli what you're wearing, what you're doing, selama nggak ganggu mereka, mereka nggak bakal ganggu! Beda kan sama di Indonesia yang pake celana pendek aja udah diliatin kayak binatang sirkus? nyampe rumah karena baru jam 7.30 an, kita keluar lagi ke Clark Quay! Di sini ada bar yang lucu banget, namanya Clinic. Konsepnya kayak rumah sakit! jadi kursinya pake kursi roda atau ranjang rumah sakit, minumannya ditaro di kantong blood transfusion, bahkan ada yang bener-bener pake suntikan! aaa so cuuttteee! Terus Tadya lanjut nonton DJ Shadow, dan karena saya nggak tertarik saya balik ke rumah aja, nonton GD&TOP via youtube buat pemanasan besok malem kan lumayan. yaa, my 2nd day in Singapore is pretty satisfying, i'm happy, happy, and FUCK I MISS SINGAPORE ALREADY! AND FUCK I SAID 'FUCK' A LOT! please kalo ada yang tau lowongan kerja di Singapore, kasih tau saya... *wae ih ada yang mau ngasih tau*

+62 goes +65

2011-09-25T11:40:00.014+07:00

my very first time abroad!

kemana? singapore.

kenapa singapore? karena adaaaa.... : SIMIAN MOBILE DISCO, DIGITALISM, MASSIVE ATTACK, and.... my recent favourite : GD&TOP & SEUNGRI !! all LIVE!

yes i'm a concert junkie. dan walaupun tahun ini musisi yang dateng ke indonesia udah kayak rombongan haji, nothing interesting for me though. kecuali the radio dept., yang sayangnya saya lewatkan. so when i heard GD&TOP & Seungri & Massive Attack are coming as Singapore F1 line up, i gather all the moneys that i've had and buy the airline ticket. i didn't even had much time to save money to live in singapore. then 2nd blessing / disaster are coming : my friend told me that on September 21st Kele, Simian Mobile Disco and Digitalism are playing in Singapore, on that very night that i've landed! i'll be so damned if i don't watch them as Simian Mobile Disco are my most coveted electronic artist! so after 1 week full of anticipation, finally! finally! finally! i'm going abroad!

and may i warned you that this will be a tedious story about an over-excited girl and her trip in singapore?

DAY 1, September 21st 2011 : Soekarno-Hatta - Changi - Avalon

Jujur ya, pas sampe Soekarno Hatta saya bingung celingak-celinguk harus ngapain. Counter maskapai penerbangan berderet dari ujung ke ujung, gate A-B-C-D-E, what the fuck should i do? akhirnya saya cari jadwal penerbangan, dan disitu tertera kalau AirAsia ada di Gate D. OK then, to Gate D i depart. Karena saya udah web check-in, sampe sana saya tinggal nunjukkin boarding pass dan bayar airport tax IDR150.000. di sini lah bencana dimulai. Duit saya ilang. FFFFFFUUUUUCCCCKKKKKK. entah di mana dia sekarang berada. Yang jelas saya udah nggak pegang rupiah lagi, ATM nyaris kosong, mau bayar pake SGD di sana nggak ada kembalian, ke money changer di dalem bandara juga nggak ada tukeran duit, kebayang paniknya kayak gimana? i'd rather bomb the entire airport than not watching Simian Mobile Disco while it's chance are right infront of me!! Pas udah mau nangis kelojotan sambil nunggu transferan dari teman baik saya, tiba-tiba saya disamperin mbak-mbak AirAsia yang kayaknya ngeliat kalo saya udah mau nangis. dia nanya, kalo kembaliannya pake rupiah aja gimana? dia takut saya telat karena antrian di imigrasi lumayan panjang juga. pengen bilang jangan karena saya nggak mau rugi sementara setiap SGD itu berharga, tapi saya bakal rugi lebih banyak kalo ketinggalan Simian Mobile Disco! so finally i said yes, heading to immigration, and while i'm in waiting room i'm crying... because i'm surrounded by lots of good people, why the fuck i'm not being gratefull? ada yang ngasih SIM card singapore, ada yang ngasih tips di sana, ada yang ngebeliin tiket, ada yang mau ngutangin tiket, ada yang mau last minute transfer, jadi saya nangis sambil diliatin bapak-bapak deh. pesawat delay 30 menit jadi saya puas-puasin mewek dulu aja sebelum party. ajiah gitu.

Mendarat di Changi jam 22.30 malem. Temen saya bilang pengen jam 23.00 udah di sana, jadi instead of pulang dulu, ganti baju, dandan, taro barang, dsb., we go straight to avalon from changi! and yes i came to avalon bringing my suitcase!

and Avalon is an uber cool club that just opened it's door in Singapore on September 16th! waktu saya dateng yang ada di atas panggung itu Kele (Bloc Party), dan yang ada di atas meja itu Smirnoff (vodka). TOLONG DICATAT : saya seharian belum makan, dan capek banget lari-lari di airport ( both of them), jadi dengan juaranya baru minum 2 gelas aja saya udah mabuuu.

Habis Kele itu Digitalism, yang langsung mainin lagu pertamanya : Idealistic! dan sedihnya setelah itu saya udah nggak inget mereka mainin lagu apa aja... Oh iya satu hal yang menarik di Singapore : Di sini orang dilarang merokok di dalam ruangan, termasuk club! Pertamanya saya kaget, how the fuck did i party without smoking? kalo mati gaya ngapain dong? kalo mau ngerokok harus keluar dulu? tapi ternyata malam itu saya terlalu mabu' untuk merokok. Setelah entah berapa lagu dimainin Digitalism, saya tidur. Yess i'm sleeping in Avalon. DAN SEDIHNYA TETAP TIDUR SAMPE SIMIAN MOBILE DISCO MAIN. FFFFF. saya cuma inget lagu pertama mereka "Sleep Deprivation" which sounds very right to me at that time, setelah itu saya nggak inget apa-apa :(

(pas masih agak sadar)

SO, unfortunately that's the end of my memorable adventure in Singapore, Day 1. Thank you Yumi, Issa, and Tadya yang sudah ngebawain tas dan koper saya. I know that's heavy. You girls lucky didn't have to cary me all the way home :p. I'm so lucky i'm with you!

2011-08-11T01:11:00.003+07:00

meet christian duor and alexander mczueen :-)

theres no i in threesome

2011-08-10T23:31:00.005+07:00

but when you open your eyes there's nothing changes

so you realize how hard it is to make 6 million comes at ease to your hand.

put your feet step forward and glance towards your wallet

hadiah awal bulan puasa

2011-08-01T16:38:00.003+07:00

selamat berpuasa semuanya! jangan memaki kalau disalip motor sembarangan, jangan diem aja kalau kaca spion disenggol tanpa permintaan maaf, kejar lalu semprotlah orang tersebut!

so, some boys got angry because of my recent review. uuuu, skerr~. uuuuu, BOOOOH-RRRIIIING.

yes, i've made mistake ; some artist got their name swapped. but apart from that, what i wrote was honest. i did not vilify anything or anyone. Rupanya ada yang keberatan temannya disebut campur sari. sekarang coba bayangkan ; sound pertama yang anda dengar mengingatkan anda pada Ladytron. lagu kedua tetap di jalur elektronik. lalu samar-samar dubstep. lalu ada Little Jinder - Youth Blood (12th Planet & Flinch Remix). Lalu ada Portishead - Roads. ya ya ya, saya dengan segala kerendahan hati nggak sepaham itu juga sama musik elektronik, tapi kalau cuma ngebedain dubstep - trip hop - deep house ya saya bisa. Saya nggak bilang penampilan itu buruk ; cuma campur-campur. siapa yang bilang saya tidak menikmati? saya bernyanyi sepenuh hati untuk Little Jinder dan Beth Gibbons. knock, knock, are you there Mr. Grumbler?

Yes I do realize that writing in media, any media wheter it's small or big has an impact. But who are you to judge, while - if only you would read my words carefully -, i'm not judging. i share. i told stories. in my humblest point of view, in my honest opinion. Oh boy you're so immature.

and for the drunk guy who ate 3 kamlet before dare say to me that my reviews was bad ; go brush your teeth with another condiment. ;-)

Kalau yang menulis review seperti yang saya tulis itu NME atau Rolling Stone apa kalian masih berani menyalak? Atau kalian terima nasib karena menganggap mulut yang lebih besar mempunyai daya kunyah lebih kuat? KENTUT

#MoccaLastShow

2011-07-18T20:40:00.014+07:00

oke. demi band idola saya di masa SMA, izinkanlah saya melaporkan situasi konser terakhir mereka di Hall A Senayan, Jakarta, Jumat 15 Juli 2011 kemarin. Ehm, baca judulnya sekali lagi ya, ini bukan review konser God Bless. Ini review Mocca Last Show : "Annabelle and The Music Box". Kalau sampai ada yang nanya gimana performa Ahmad Albar kemarin, jangan heran kalau ada hujan es mendadak.

Setelah 5 jam duduk di mobil dari Bandung, lengkap dengan semua drama di perjalanan, akhirnya kami tiba juga di Hall A Senayan. (Sebenernya kami tiba di Hall B sih, tapi jalan sedikit toh akhirnya sampai juga di tempat yang seharusnya.) Kesan pertama : parkiran penuh. Oke, berarti yang datang banyak. Kesan kedua : Kok belum ada suara berisik apa-apa? Padahal kita datang jam 19.45? Jangan-jangan mocca last show nya AKUSTIK? mampus beraaaat.

tapi ternyata selayaknya acara musik manapun di Indonesia, kurangnya hingar bingar dikarenakan oleh keterlambatan dimulainya acara. begitu saya dan rombongan ~~phyton~~ lou belle shop & monik house masuk, Hall A Senayan penuh sekali sampai ke ujung-ujungnya. memang benar kata pepatah : "posisi menentukan prestasi". saya dan teman saya berhasil mendapatkan tempat nyempil di ujung kiri. pemandangan dan kualitas suara tentu tidak sejernih kalau duduk di tengah, tapi mau pindah juga tampak penuh semua, jadilah kami terima nasib.

Tidak lama setelah kami duduk, masih hah-heh-hoh dengan pemandangan sekitar, dan jujur saja, merinding dengan banyaknya jumlah penonton yang hadir di sana (kalau ini konser band metal pasti saya batal nonton), acara pun dimulai. duo 'story teller' yang sepertinya lebih cocok disebut pelawak : Agus Ringgo Rahman dan Soleh Solihun menyambut penonton malam itu. sepertinya keberadaan mereka sangat menghibur, sempat membuat penonton lupa kalau malam itu adalah konser terakhir Mocca setelah hampir 12 tahun keberadaan mereka di dunia musik Indonesia. mereka menjelaskan secara singkat alur cerita dari Annabelle and The Music Box, tentang gadis bernama Annabelle yang menemukan kotak musik ajaib, dst.

Konser dibuka dengan lagu Dream, diiringi visual Annabelle yang terbangun dari mimpi buruknya dan menemukan kotak musik ajaib. Malam itu, Mocca berkolaborasi dengan banyak musisi seperti Float, Endah & Rhesa, Ade Paloh, Mondo Gascaro hingga White Shoes and The Couples Company. Setiap kolaborasi memiliki selling point tersendiri, saling memperkuat antara lagu yang dibawakan dan karakter musik hasil percampuhan mocca dan bintang tamu itu sendiri. Seperti pada lagu 'This Conversation', Arina berkolaborasi dengan Ade Paloh, dan seandainya konsernya bisa diulang ya, anda mungkin bisa lebih merasakan 'keSOREan' dalam lagu tersebut.

Contoh yang paling mudah dicerna mungkin terdapat pada lagu 'Me & My Boyfriend', dimana Mocca berkolaborasi dengan Endah & Rhesa, seakan menekankan poin kemesraan pada lagu tersebut, membuat hampir seluruh penonton seakan teringat pada pasangan masing-masing. Jadi sementara selama lagu tersebut orang di depan saya asik pacaran dan *ehm* teman di sebelah saya asik SMS-an, saya berusaha konsentrasi pada improvisasi yang dilakukan secara bergantian oleh Endah & Rhesa. Berhasil kok. Improvisasi mereka sukses menghindarkan saya dari perihnya nasib melajang. *eeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaa*

Total ada sekitar 23 lagu dibawakan dalam konser ini, kolaborasi paling akhir lebih tepat jika disebut sebagai 'pertukaran vokalis', dimana Nona Sari dari WSATCC membawakan lagu Mocca "What If", walaupun sambil nyontek, karena iya, liriknya emang susah dihafalin, entah bagaimana membawa suasana baru, lebih retro? lebih segar? mungkin karena bahkan ketika membawakan lagu Mocca pun Nona Sari tetap bergoyang 'manis manja' seperti ketika menyanyikan lagu-lagu WSATCC. Sementara itu Arina diiringi oleh para personel WSATCC membawakan lagu "Senandung Maaf". Ah, sungguh suatu kolaborasi yang sangat unik dan langka, masing-masing band tampil dengan sentuhan baru.

Momen paling mengharukan menurut saya adalah ketika Arina untuk pertama kalinya membawakan lagu nasional "Tanah Airku" ciptaan Ibu Sud. Arina yang akan bertolak ke negeri seberang, Paman Sam, untuk mengikuti suaminya - yang juga menjadi alasan vakumnya Mocca - , membawakan lagu ini dengan penuh penghayatan. Diiringi denting piano, rasanya mustahil ada penonton yang tidak ikut terharu mendengarkannya.

What a night, what a weekend. sungguh disayangkan band sebesar Mocca harus vakum untuk jangka waktu yang tidak dapat ditentukan. "Kenapa nggak cari vokalis pengganti?" adalah pertanyaan yang sempat keluar di Press Conference mereka kemarin, dan jawabannya adalah "Dari awal kami memulai band ini bersama Arina, dan rasanya sampai akhir pun lebih baik seperti itu." - kurang lebih seperti itulah jawaban yang diberikan oleh Mocca kemarin, maaf saya kurang ingat. Dan dengan itu pupuslah harapan saya mengajukan diri sebagai vokalis pengganti, hahahahaha.

Long live Mocca, ditunggu reuni nya, selamat untuk Arina yang akan memulai hidup baru, we all know lifes keep on turning :-)

words by : Rara Utami

all photos courtessy of : Marine Ramdhani

2011-06-19T03:08:00.003+07:00

FFWD Records Presents :

PopRiot!

Band on The Deck

Rendy (Hightime Rebellion DJ Set) // Diantra (Hollywood Nobody DJ Set) // Dea (Homogenic DJ Set) // Saree (PopRiot!) // Iky x Rhesa (FFWD / PopRiot!)

Friday June 24th 2011, start 9 pm, at Patio Jl. LLRE Martadinata #90

they said : "shake your pop till riot!"

against the tide

2011-06-18T23:42:00.007+07:00

i'm no big fans of photoshop, that's why i chose textile design among others.

that's why job title 'VMD' supposed to be dealing with 3D objects, textures, light, etc.

less than 2 hours were the time given but thanks to magic wand - crop - crop - drag - drag - and here i am : creating Mocca's Press Conference invitation and flyer. voila! :D

i guess we'll be friends now dear photoshop, since now i'm responsible for GD. see you at supposed-to-be-fixed-soon-my-office-pc.

JIHAD

2011-06-04T07:47:00.003+07:00

Shinichi Osawa - Love Will Guide You (Robotaki Remix)

mendengarkan ini seperti mendeklarasikan "saya lebih suka tempe mendoan daripada sushi" ; versi remix ini enak, tapi tetap lebih enak versi aslinya.

nggak semua remixan itu enak, makanya suka males kalo ada lagu favorit saya yang diremix. kalo bagus ya alhamdulillah buat yang ngeremix ; kalo jelek kok saya ikut bersedih.

random mixed thoughts

lagi-lagi : jadi orang terlalu sensitif itu nggak enak. tapi nggak sensitif kok rasanya kurang ajar
enak aja fase menyedihkan. kamu yang patetik. saya melankolis doang
semua orang memang pada dasarnya egois ; tapi bahkan kadang-kadang anda sudah ada di ambang batas keterlaluan
i'll wait until you get a real life. ayo ah cepetann
bahkan mengalah ada batasnya. lihat saja suatu hari nanti. yang saya juga nggak mau ngelihat.

life will never be fair, as the world could never be square.

you may hate me for several reasons, so do i and everybody elses.

basically i hate myself ; less than anyone elses, but more than cockroach.

i hate it like i hate key chain with bells : i kept getting it from other people.

so : i found this video is interesting, both audio and visual.

2011-05-22T18:51:00.004+07:00

playing this song over and over, gonna break 100 soon.

"you're my favourite daydream. i'm your famous ~~nightmare~~ stalker.

everything i see looks like gold, everything i touch turns cold" - Twin Shadow, Castles in The Snow.

tranquilty, tranquilty. i plead for my happiness.

"we had a lot of fights, but i think that's just about the same like marriage. we just can't keep falling in love. ....... just sleep separately then."

i got this from my friend from japan. i have to put a bit of sugar on it.

also bit of sugar to my life.

but tommorrow will be surprisingly better.

oh dear

2011-05-15T01:32:00.003+07:00

what's the differences between K-Pop listener to electronic music listener? The clothes? The behaviour? Why is it one being called 'korean wave' and the other one 'edgy' ? Why don't we call it 'electronic wave' ?

I guess it's the devotion of those K-pop artist fans that makes them grew so fast, faster than fungus on a raining season. I admit the korean hardcore fans are giving so much effort, a whole lot much than - let's just say - electronic music fans. Even as i am speaking, if i heard telepopmusik come to Indonesia, first thing i'm going to do is not buying their concert's ticket : i'm going to look for a freepass. DOH. Being compared to those 'korean wave' die hard spirit, i felt ashamed. Besides, i am secretly enjoying some of those Korean Variety Show. But I don't think I could afford my self being addicted to some k-pop. It's gonna cost me a lot much to watch them live in concert than Chemical Brothers, i guess. Uh, i'm talking about the crowd. imagine die get trampled over bunch of girls high heels screaming "AAAAAAAAA!!".

i'll wear fat boy slim's tshirt with pride.

i'm not sure i could do the same with CN Blue's tshirt. *but i kinda like yong hwa*

playing household

2011-04-18T07:06:00.003+07:00

selamat pagi semuanyaaaa! BANDUNG MANA SUARANYAAAA???

uh sejak seminggu yang lalu Ibu (yes, with capital i) saya yang tercinta pergi ke Surabaya, maka secara tidak langsung saya yang bertanggung jawab atas mutu gizi makanan yang dikonsumsi ayah dan adik saya. Bukannya saya jago masak, yaaa, cuma masakan saya sedikit lebih bisa dimakan daripada buatan ayah saya lah.

maka, setelah bosan masak aneka osengan dan gorengan, barusan saya memutuskan untuk membuat martabak mie. yes, that very instant noodle fried with eggs. sayangnya bentuknya tidak indah seperti ini

bentuk martabak mie buatan saya lebih.. ugh, absurd. sampai detik ini saya belum berani makan martabak mie buatan saya sendiri. mestinya sih rasanya enak, soalnya saya tambahin MSG dalam jumlah signifikan. nanti kalau sudah saya makan, rasanya saya tweet deh.

14.04.11 [2]

2011-04-15T16:58:00.004+07:00

So, yesterday i made my self stumbled to Splashing Colours event, starring Sketsa, White Shoes and The Couples Company, and The Adams. The event took places at Bandung Giri Gahana pool area, a golf place in Jatinangor. I've been there before, but last time i visited the place was on 2003 when i was on Junior High School because my father took part on that place projects as a civil engineer or something. I remember the place vaguely, and there are this new road to get there so i was confused. So i ended up made the wrong turn, turn back, then made another wrong turn that took me almost to Sumedang, turn back again and finally arrived on this long, ascending and dark road that lead to the venue.

Good things i arrived right when WSATCC started their performances, so i don't have to wait for too long. Bad things i made my friends waiting for almost an hour waiting for me to get there. Sorry :-(

As usual WSATCC performances were never dissapointing.  Started with Windu Devrina, their lead singer, Nona Sari , always mesmerized me with her attractive yet not tacky moves. And her voice were never beyond pitch. Purrrrrrfeccttt. I watched them performing 'Aksi Kucing' for several times already, but it never failed to made me smile. The backing vocal singing 'meong meong' always had me laughing. And i never get bored singing along.  The sound system were fine, at the very important i could hear the keyboard sound, all the tree of it. The vocal and backing vocal sound also clear, even the sound of Nona Sari snapping her finger could be heard. Overall it's a better sound system than it was at KOC on Sabuga. I do admit they're one of  Indonesian finest band.

The next band i watched is The Adams. I have never watched them performing live, but i've been listening to their records since 2006, and some of their songs were my favourite until now. I love them when they're singing like a choir. Not at their perfect pitch maybe, but it's nice anyway. Nearly burst into tears when they're singing 'Konservatif'. And Ale may talk so much, but he is so funny and entertaining i don't mind after all. Their sound engineer -if they had any- may not doing his jobs since their sound changing everytime, and yes it's rather disturbing.

Overall, it is a nice event on such a faraway nice places, held on a rainy day, but i'm happy. :-)

14.04.11

2011-04-15T16:38:00.002+07:00

i'm a yesterdays birthday girl :)
hehehe terimakasih semuanya, untuk surprise 'diva kena gergaji' nya, untuk kuenya, untuk 'ngerepotin aja' nya, untuk demi WSATCC-trip-almost-nagreg nya, untuk semuanya. saya senang sekali lho, dan semoga di angka kembar ini saya menemukan banyak kebahagiaan dobel! x)

this is my last birthday on college, and thinking about it made me sad. i have my 19 to 22 birthday surprise there, mulai dari dibaptis di indonesia tenggelam, surprise gagal di TPB, surprise di tengah rapat pasar seni, sampai surprise di patung. i really almost starting to cry now. i don't want to think where will i get my next year birthday surprise, if theres any. thank you everyone. :'")

was it last year already? it does felt like yesterday :)

2011-04-11T00:26:00.002+07:00

best possible way to cut off your nerve :

1. get drunk, drive responsibly, sleep rightaway. if you're lucky, you're might not suffering from hangover.

2. ride tidal wave on a car. hope you're survived and stay dry.

3. write on your blog rather than babbling around on your not-so-close friend.

without noticing, the PMS strikes again. or is it just me being out of sorts? everything just felt wrong lately. i don't want to hold grudge, but HERE I AM NOW HOLDING IT. God, can't i just swear to random people (and not get beaten)? #nowplaying Primal Scream - Don't Fight It, Feel It.

liputan 4 subuh

2011-04-03T21:35:00.015+07:00

baiklah, daripada saya terus berusaha memberikan tips kurang berguna (padahal curhat), mungkin ada baiknya saya melaporkan apa yang saya alami Sabtu kemarin.

jadi, kemarin ada banyak acara musik yang berlangsung di Bandung. Yang saya tahu ada Hearing Session Polyester Embassy 2nd album, The Experience Brothers launching album, acara di Unpar, dan acara di PVJ. Belum termasuk acara khitanan / nikahan yang berlangsung, yang pastinya ada band-bandnya juga kan ya.

Sayangnya karena saya tidak bisa menghadiri semuanya tentu saja, saya hanya datang ke dua acara. Hearing Session PE saya hadiri, tentu saja karena sayangnya saya bertugas sebagai pembawa acara di situ. The Experience Brothers karena teman-teman saya pada dateng dan jujur saja karena malas pulang ke rumah nun jauh di gunung, maka saya pasrah. Langsung saya bahas acara pertama aja ya : Hearing Session Polyester Embassy.

"good love is on the way, i can hear the steps. the faster you come, the longer we could play around"

saya yakin liriknya pasti salah, namun kira-kira begitulah sepenggal lirik yang paling saya kenang dari lagu Polyester Embassy - Good Love. Duh tetep curhat kan. Anyway, hearing session kemarin memutar total 7 lagu dari album mereka Fake / Faker. Album kedua mereka sendiri baru akan diluncurkan awal Mei nanti. Yang saya suka dari Polyester Embassy dari dulu ; mendengarkan mereka seperti menyimak Maybeshewill campur Nine Inch Nails. Ada bagian yang melankolis, ada bagian yang bikin excited, tapi secara keseluruhan mereka benar-benar menggarap sound-nya dengan detail, membuat saya yakin proses mixing memakan waktu yang tidak sebentar. Dan saya curiga sound layernya banyak sekali, sepertinya mereka menggarap setiap lagu dengan ketelatenan seorang koki membuat kue lapis legit. Layer per layer, tuang, tunggu setengah mateng, tambah layer selanjutnya, tunggu mateng lagi, dsb.

Dari lagu pertama yang mereka putar "Air", yang berbicara tentang air travel dimana waktu dan jarak seperti sudah tidak terasa lagi, mereka menonjolkan detail sound yang terinspirasi dari proses take off, turbulance, hingga landing. Mungkin kalau saya sudah dapet albumnya saya bakal dengerin lagu ini pake headphone, karena katanya mereka menjanjikan kualitas suara yang bikin tersiksa kayak lagi turbulance. Kiri-kanan-kiri-kanan. Tapi karena ketika acara hearing session saya berdiri tepat di sebelah speaker sebelah kanan, alhasil saya nyaris nggak nangkep setengah dari turbulance itu. Point taken : seandainya Tuhan berkenan mempermalukan saya lagi dengan menjadikan saya sebagai MC, ada baiknya saya tidak berdiri di sebelah speaker.

Lagu kedua "Later On", saya kurang nangkep liriknya, tapi katanya ini lagu cinta. Bukan cinta fitri ; tapi cinta antara ibu - anak. Bukan, ini bukan oediphus complex, goblok. Jangan suka suudzon dong. Ini cerita tentang seorang ibu yang rela memberikan nyawanya kepada anaknya, tentang penantian untuk kemudian dapat berjumpa kembali di dunia sana. Mungkin ini pengaruh Elang Eby yang baru menjadi ayah ya, dan sepertinya beliau sangat bersyukur tidak ada nyawa yang harus hilang dalam proses kelahiran. Lagu ini menarik, dan jujur sampai sekitar 5 menit kemudian saya masih terbayang bayang melodinya. Sayang sekali sekarang sudah lupa.

Lagu itu tanpa jeda langsung disambung "LSD" yang ternyata merupakan singkatan dari Light Sunny Day, bukan mengacu pada substansi yang bikin girang itu. Menurut Ekky, lagu ini adalah soundtrack yang paling cocok untuk didengarkan sambil naik motor Harley tahun 2000 ke atas menuju Las Vegas. Tapi PE juga tidak mengingkari bahwa lagu ini terinspirasi dari pengalaman mereka menggunakan substansi penggembira tersebut. Dari proses naik, pecah, sampai mau beres yang katanya kayak mau mati.

Yang diputar selanjutnya adalah lagu yang juga menjadi single pertama di album Fake/Faker ; "Space Travel Rock n Roll". Catchy. Itu yang saya tangkap secara keseluruhan. Ini adalah lagu dimana mereka menggunakan seorang additional trumpet player, yang lagi-lagi tidak berhasil saya tangkap suara terompetnya karena posisi berdiri saya yang sangat tidak menguntungkan. Lagu ini sengaja mereka pilih sebagai single pertama dari album mereka karena menurut mereka lagu ini paling berbeda. Memang, secara keseluruhan lagu ini tidak lagi meneriakkan "DESPERATION!" seperti lagu Polypanic Room di album pertama mereka. Ada sentuhan keceriaan samar-samar di lagu ini. Subtle touch of hope, ibarat dikasih lirikan malu-malu sama kecengan anda.

cemilan 6 jenis yang sukses diliatin sama mas-mas yth.

Lagu-lagu selanjutnya yang diputar di acara hearing session ini adalah Good Love, Fake/Faker dan terakhir ditutup dengan White Crimes. Overall, Polyester Embassy berhasil menyingkirkan kekhawatiran saya akan kualitas album kedua band-band pada umumnya ; menurun. Contohnya (menurut saya pribadi) adalah Bloc Party, CSS, Women, etc. Polyester Embassy di sisi lain berkembang, mungkin belum maksimal, tapi setidaknya mereka tidak berkembang ke arah yang salah. Yang pasti, saya angkat seluruh jempol di tangan&kaki saya karena mereka mau 'rewel' demi kesempurnaan sound dalam sebuah lagu. Sepertinya 9 lagu di album ini secara tidak langsung merupakan permohonan maaf mereka kepada para fans atas jeda antar album yang cukup panjang.

All photo courtessy of Lou Belle Shop

Acara kedua yang saya datangi setelah itu adalah The Experience Brothers launching album. Kalau nggak salah ini adalah launching album kedua mereka. Saya sebenernya belum pernah mendengarkan lagunya, tapi saya tahu band ini karena mereka sempat ngasih CD Demo buat acara Pasar Seni XXX XXXX. Tapi, maaf ya brothers, cd demo kalian hilang sebelum sempat saya dengarkan.

Maka saya datang ke acara ini, tepat ketika Katjie&Piering sedang memulai pertunjukkan nya. No comment. Skip aja ya. Maka The Experience Brothers pun menaiki panggung. Dari artwork albumnya juga terbayang musiknya. Dan dari genjrengan gitar pertama tepat seperti itulah lagunya. To be honest, i really don't dig this type of music. Katanya mereka berkolaborasi dengan 4 guest star, tapi berhubung dari 11 lagu yang mereka bawakan, 8 diantaranya saya habiskan di luar area konser sambil curhat, maka saya hanya sempat menyaksikan kolaborasi mereka dengan Iga Massardi (TTATW) dan Rekti Yoewono (The S.I.G.I.T). Kolaborasi bersama Iga mereka membawakan lagu The Black Keys - I Got Mine. Sedangkan kolaborasi bersama Rekti mereka membawakan lagu Led Zeppelin - Rock and Roll. I still don't dig their music, but sure that's quite a collaboration.

The Experience Brothers sendiri hanya beranggotakan 2 orang yang tentunya bersaudara, ditilik dari namanya pun sudah ketauan. Instrumennya hanya gitar dan drum. Di satu lagu yang sempat saya lihat, mereka menggunakan semacam sequencer. Tapi tetap saja, dengan formasi minimal, dan hanya dibantu sequencer yang berisikan layer nada tipis dan samar, penampilan mereka terkesan berenergi dan tidak terdengar minimalis sama sekali. Salut untuk The Experience Brothers, saya tahu kalian main di Java Fucking Rocking Land 2010 kemarin, karena kalian sendiri yang bilang begitu ke saya, ketika kalian menanyakan kepastian main di Pasar Seni XXX XXXX. Sekali lagi maaf saya menghilangkan CD Demo kalian.

Saya ngantuk. Semoga liputan ini lebih menghibur dan berguna dibanding artikel sucks di bawah artikel ini. "GOOD THINGS HAPPEN WHEN YOU GO FOR IT!"

random thoughts

2011-03-24T01:49:00.002+07:00

1. kita semua pasti pernah tidak menepati janji tapi tetap kesal ketika kita yang 'dikhianati'.

2. duh, empati itu bikin capek

3. berbahagia di atas kegalauan orang lain bikin segan curhat

4. melihat muka kecengan dengan khusyuk menyebabkan mulas

5. terkadang kamu nggak bisa memaki orang yang kamu benci setengah mati

6. menangis semalaman memang bikin mata bengkak, but look at the bright side : kulit wajah jadi lembab setelah diairi semalaman

7. and no ; mata sembap nggak bikin kamu disapa kecengan lebih dulu

8. percuma nyepet di twitter kalo orangnya nggak baca, kalaupun baca belum tentu dia nyadar, kalaupun dia nyadar biasanya kamu bilang itu bukan buat dia.

9. no.8 bukan selalu berarti kita bermuka dua ; but sometimes it's worthless to be serious on twitter

10. kenapa justru di depan orang yang kita suka lah lidah ini harus kehilangan jurus silatnya........

11. efek samping dari no.10 dalam kasus ekstrim : benturan kepala ke tembok terdekat akibat rasa kesal atas kemelempeman diri sendiri

duh maaf ya ini jadinya bukan random thoughts, tapi random curhat and useless tips. have a nice mood lho semuanya!

2011-03-05T01:10:00.001+07:00

all i want to do is go to a beach with you.
riding an old car, facing the sun.
listen to a holiday mixtapes.
drinking cold stout from the bottle.
sharing cigarettes.
feel the wind blows in our hair.
acompanied by the mosquitos.
laughing to a friends jokes.
maybe we're not even talking to each other.
i'll steal a glimpse from your eyes.
i'll try to fall asleep on your shoulder.
maybe you'll caught me smiling.
we'll be tired and stop at nowhere.
if we're traped on fog, turn the beam lamp on.
we'll catch cold, but we're too excited to care about it.
we eat anything we want.
i'll be too happy to be hungry.
i want to sleep on the sand, watching the stars.
i know i'll get bored eventualy, but you're already falling asleep.
shall we build a tent?
i would love to watch the sunrise with you, too.
collecting shells that i know would be useless.
i'd love to steal a scene from you.
taking photos together.
i know i'll fall in love with you.

who are you?

2011-02-20T16:50:00.001+07:00

a sorta schiacciare speranza

"hopeless crush"

ever had one? always.

2011-02-09T17:25:00.002+07:00

skala 1 - 10 , berapakah tingkat kekecewaan anda terhadap nilai Tugas Akhir yang diberikan tim penilai?

12.

cukup. lain kali saya nggak akan percaya sama orang buat ngerjain hal yang penting dan mendesak, contohnya laporan tugas akhir.

maaf kalo pada akhirnya saya nggak ngomong langsung ke muka anda, saya takut nangis, dan nangis di depan orang bersangkutan dengan efek menimbulkan rasa belas kasihan untuk mempermudah proses revisi laporan saya somehow lessen my pride. i do remind you that those papers need to be done by friday morning, 'aight? and that exclude many revision need to be added.

"fffffffucccckkk offffffff, everyonnneeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!"

2011-02-03T21:01:00.002+07:00

nobody know i've been crying all night.

but now you know.

nobody even notice my eyes have been so swollen i couldn't get out of my bed.

and so are you.

*sigh*

guess what? i'll be showing up tommorrow with a smile in my face, but it doesn't mean i never cry. i never mad at you, doesn't mean i'm fine.

OH! the immensity of the fuck i do not give!!!!!!

2011-02-01T12:41:00.002+07:00

"...do i love you?

yes i love you

but easy come easy go,

don't let me down"

bagus kan? unfortunately i'm in love with someone that i know nothing about.

lyrics taken from The Radio Dept. - A Token Of Gratitude

rainy days and mondays always get me down

2011-01-31T02:27:00.003+07:00

oh come on, my life has been so flat and boring lately.

even if it was a rainy days and mondays, they couldn't be worse than any other days.

final project my ass.

ah, tapi kata Mario Teguh juga; "Tetap semangat, salam Golden Ways."

--wae--

2011-01-10T04:45:00.002+07:00

malem-malem denger m83; inget mantan.

eh tiba-tiba di inbox ada message dari doi.

tuhan memang ada, saudaraku.

ps : inget doang, bukan kangen.

pps : inbox fesbuk sih.

2010-12-30T00:13:00.001+07:00

I dreamed about you again last night
You never have the same face twice
But I always know it's you
And you're always looking better than you really do
Than you really do

And I walk around the whole next day
Feeling like I've still got something to say
But I don't know what it is
And I don't know how to reach you even if I did
Even if I did

Do I wanna hear that you forgive me?
Do I wanna hear you're no good without me?
And am I big enough to hear that you never even think about me?
Why should you ever think about me?

And I thought that I'd outgrow this kind of thing
Tell me, aren't we supposed to mature or something?
I haven't found that yet
Is this as grown-up as we ever get?
Maybe this is as good as it gets

Years may go by
But I think the heart remains a child
The mind may grow wise
But the heart just sulks and it whines and remains a child
I think the heart remains a child

Why don't you love me?
Why don't you love me??
Why don't you love me???

ternyata cuma lagu : Everything But The Girl - The Heart Remains a Child

balada tugas akhir

2010-12-13T23:57:00.003+07:00

poorly drawn by rara utami and even poorer text by rara utami

please do click to enlarge the picture

saturday night fever

2010-12-12T14:05:00.003+07:00

i love the smell of an incense stick burning
i love showering my self with hot water
i love the taste of mint, except barley mint
i love seeing the sky so grey as if it's wanted to cry
i love hearing a crisp laugh of anyone even if it's a stranger

quote tadi malam : "om makasih mandalay nya!" diucapkan oleh seorang wanita berkeberanian super (under certain influence) kepada bapak indie Indonesia yang membalas "oh ya sip"

hidup, hidup.

2010-12-11T12:56:00.003+07:00

Let him treat you like a criminal
So you can treat him like a priest
Boys forgive my human mind
Boys forgive me one more time

Never tell the one you love that you do
Save it for the deathbed

today

2010-12-09T21:11:00.004+07:00

proyek baru : write 5 things you love today. supaya insaowloh lebih bersyukur gitu ya.

1. bangun siang

2. kucing saya mau melahirkan!

3. makan indomie pake mangkok baru dari puti

4. ym.

5. inti hari ini : indulgence.

and yes i love it

love/hate

2010-10-13T14:32:00.002+07:00

pasar seni sudah selesai, dan kami pun tersenyum bahagiaa
iya, saya kemarin nang*s pas udah beres, soalnya saya emang cengeeeengg.
tapi kenapa udah tanggal 13 oktober saya masih kepengen nangis ya?
mungkin karena apa yang udah lewat nggak bisa di rewind lagi, nggak kayak lagu di iTunes yang bisa diatur kita mau denger pas menit keberapa.

kalo ada momen yang pengen saya ulang, mungkin itu adalah 10 Oktober 2010 pukul 02.31 pas lagi hectic-hecticnya. perizinan boulevard belum ada; padahal sound udah dipesen, band udah pada confirm, dan bahkan listrik pun belum ada dan nggak tega ngerecokin si molen yang pasti udah mau modar bolak-balik kesetrum sana-sini. sama momen hari-H pas wahana neraka di cc timur jebol dan saya nyaris di jumroh sama penonton. hahaha..

pas lagi ngerjain marah-marah pengen cepet beres; pas udah beres nangis-nangis pengen diulang.

gimanapun orang menilai acara kemarin, saya cuma mau minta maaf sebesar-besarnya buat semua orang yang udah saya bentak, diperlakukan dengan tidak sopan, diusir secara halus maupun kasar, diseruduk dari belakang baik oleh saya maupun runner/bodyguard saya yang super keren sabarnya ampun ampunaan, dan terimakasih buat semua anak acara! kalian sabar banget menghadapi madame yang emosinya labil kayak abang-abang SMA Pasundan ini, terimakasih kalian mau nurut sama saya pas hari-H apapun keputusan yang saya ambil, thanks god ada kalian!

:____________))

PASAR SENI ITB 2010

2010-10-01T00:02:00.002+07:00

a pain in my ass.

TAPI JANGAN LUPA DATENG YA.
10 oktober 2010
@ITB 09.00 - 17.00!

free. GRATIS.

eh terus kalo dateng jangan lupa tepuk punggung saya sambil bilang "selamat ya, acaranya keren."

apapun yang terjadi walaupun misalnya ternyata acaranya nggak keren-keren amat.

"white lies do necessary" - Ponari, 2009

red - white - blue

2010-06-16T22:41:00.002+07:00

i wasn't think much when i said 'yes'.

p.s

2010-05-27T16:16:00.002+07:00

don't worry, you're still arrived on usual blog of mine. well i'm changing the name of my blog! why? it's a secret of mine which i'd prefer to keep. HA - HA.
enjoy!

SERVE WELL CHILLED

2010-05-26T15:34:00.003+07:00

'tenang' adalah satu kata yang tidak saya miliki untuk saat ini.
mungkin cuma wanita muslimah yang BISA.

H-4 bulan.
come on, scream and repeat after me : "AAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!"

nah, these days are gone :(

2010-05-26T15:13:00.007+07:00

rambut sahabat saya, sebut saja oknum ocol (bukan nama sebenarnya), yang spektakuler di awal tingkat 2.

i wanna have a pixie hair cut again like those days that were gone!

let's being sentimental for a sec.

sick

2010-05-19T23:13:00.001+07:00

di luar dingin,
suhu badan panas,
tapi hati ini beku.

sampai kapan mau curhat di blogger terus heeeyy?

mumbling diary

2010-05-16T16:42:00.005+07:00

thanks to rega, dessy and cicid for the quotes.

lyrics encripted from "her space holiday - tech romance"

sementara orang lain serius rapat, kami memutuskan untuk curhat colongan edan - edanan.
maaf yah, this is what i called full dedications throug hard times.

pffffttttttttt

2010-05-11T04:31:00.003+07:00

i miss yer mixtapes.

do you miss me like i do? do i miss you like you did?

ah, kenapa blogger jadi media curcol edan-edanan gini sih.

go ahead

2010-05-04T21:36:00.004+07:00

you gave me something i can't deny.
go ahead, leave me crumpled.
i do care but i can do nothing.

i swore i've seen bambi in high heels

2010-04-18T18:59:00.004+07:00

alice shout to bambi : "Hey Bambi dear, you forget your heels!"

Bambi replied : "Uh-oh Alice my dear, i am into 70's right now. I don't think heels would be necesary. I would prefer barefoot for now."

i swore i once saw bambi in Louboutin killer high heels. He may not be admitting it. What i cannot been swore is wheter i'm sober or not when i see him. Dear bambi, tell me the truth!

go easy on me

2010-04-11T22:48:00.004+07:00

I loved her

He whispered

He had to tame her

Then forgave her

Did you know her?

He whispered

Did they embrace her? Oh . . .

Have I condemned her
Oh, God

She won't be there with a rat whore

I lost her

He christened

We obtained her

But I erase her

I'll pay for her wayward eyes

Oh, God

She won't be there with a rat whore

lyrics taken from :

Does It Offend You, Yeah? - With a Heavy Heart ( I Regret to Inform You)

i'll learn how to fly

2010-04-09T17:46:00.003+07:00

someday. maybe, someday.

will you teach me?

mmm. .hmmm.

2010-03-28T05:18:00.004+07:00

hmm, i had a great nights this weekend.
thank you.
for being there.
you're guys really make my nights.
see you again? soon?

sending you my best regards ever,
rara.

they said, where is a will there is a way.

i said, where is a will there's a price to pay.

nothings free.
even if it utilizised your firend,
be sure it is not for free.

unless, of course, you are a damn-cold-moron-skanky-bitches.

finnaly, i said it.

2010-03-06T19:45:00.005+07:00

and yes i've made this story-letter to you.

sound of desperation

2010-03-04T07:43:00.006+07:00

bottles of beer

non-hygienic fried cap cay from Mr. Gisin

cans of coffee
+
sleepless night

equals diarrhea and unwelled body conditions we so used to call 'enter-wind'

girl talks ...

2010-03-04T05:36:00.004+07:00

girls. what were they're talking about? yeah rite,

boys.

help

2010-02-25T17:05:00.000+07:00

My life is a mess.

Or a big jokes to god.

God, with his unimitable taste of humor!

what did you see, and what do you get?

2010-02-20T22:26:00.003+07:00

but then i see ;

yohji yamamoto for dr.martens

2010-02-16T14:43:00.002+07:00

original pictures are published on dazed and confused magazine, i'll post them later on :)

lies grows so easy, so easy

2010-02-16T13:48:00.004+07:00

it is almost absolutely effortless

i wish i were there

2010-02-10T14:37:00.002+07:00

my love for you, télépopmusik.

why do birds

2010-02-10T14:19:00.000+07:00

suddenly appear?

how we may assist you?

2010-01-23T23:01:00.000+07:00

in any way

pulp - do you remember the first time?

2010-01-23T22:54:00.001+07:00

The Brunettes - Her Hairagami Set

2010-01-23T22:45:00.003+07:00

just now

2010-01-08T03:30:00.000+07:00

o my dearest heart, can't you just stop sighing and crying and moaning?

can't you did something else like. . .sleep?

please.just for now.

#2

2010-01-04T19:47:00.000+07:00

moving on are best proofed by act, not word.

animal distinct

2010-01-04T19:37:00.002+07:00

i want to play with you

silly

2010-01-04T19:26:00.004+07:00

on one fine-sunny day, i was fell in love.

without any preparations, without any of those safety-first-kit whatsoever.

all out of sudden a pot plant fell into my head.

next time i fall in love, i'll wear a helmet.

you made me did this

2009-12-18T17:06:00.003+07:00

it is already became a habbit to blame something to someone elses

bleeding

2009-12-16T19:55:00.002+07:00

losing

2009-11-15T10:04:00.002+07:00

please stop trying to impressed her. you are losing your mind!

decoy

2009-11-15T09:44:00.002+07:00

encrypted from portishead's song - elysium

2009-11-15T09:19:00.001+07:00

i love this song by portishead - elysium.

tusuk terus

2009-10-31T15:00:00.000+07:00

aku sayang ibu

2009-10-31T14:56:00.002+07:00

hello

2009-08-13T06:02:00.002+07:00

happy sight-seeing! :)